Feeling less than adequate.

Lately I have been feeling very inadequate at home. Really its nothing super major but the kids had McDonalds for dinner one night last week, the laundry is piling up, our house is just generally a mess, and the days just keep flying by. With work, sleep, or lack of because of all the appointments that have to be scheduled during the day I get to sleep for like 3 hours then I’m up for the day. 

 We did get some news about all the evaluations for Ronnie though. He scored a 77 on the paper test part. Which is basically a booklet of questions for me to answer about him, the school Occupational therapist said that she would be able to write her program off of the information that she already had from Ms. Christine at our outside therapy. I’m not completely sure how the speech therapist felt after our time with her. We have one more cognitive evaluation tomorrow in the morning and then all of the specialists and the teacher get together to score all of the evaluations. After they all talk and determine how to move forward we then schedule a meeting to talk and get on the same page to write his IEP. 

 I’m still not 100% sure what to think of it all. Although it’s happened really slowly, it’s actually really fast in my head with everything else that’s going on. I guess just wrapping our heads around all of it has been kind of overwhelming. So I am told that an IEP will be like the directions on how to get to our education goals. 

 I am thankful that I have a friend who has gone through this with her children and can help walk me through it all. Although she is now home schooling and that is working out way better for their family. I don’t know if homeschooling is the right path for us. So for now my goal is to finish this year and next year in the special education program and then for Ronnie to go to Montessori kindergarten like Evee does now. I do have a plan really I do, I have to have a plan or else I will go crazy. 

 I guess that I really shouldn’t feel as bad as I do about our messy house or, McDonalds for dinner. The kids are happy, growing, learning, and being kids. Feeding them McDonalds one night for dinner is actually probably the least of my worries. At least they actually ate it! Because they sure don’t eat the majority of what I actually cook! Definitely not the acorn squash I prepared the other night.

 Miss Evee saw the customary bin of squash at Fred Meyer and decided that we needed to take one home. So we picked out an acorn squash that was on the smaller side and it went home with us. Honestly it sat on the counter for a good week and a half before I actually decided to cook it. I cut it in half with a really sharp knife really I could have used a rubber mallet too, that sucker was hard to cut in half! Once I halved it I scooped the insides out like a cantaloupe as Evee said. I coated the inside with butter and brown sugar and sat the halves in a square glass baking dish with about ¼” of water in the bottom, then baked it at 350 degrees for an hour. To serve it I scooped the meat out with a spoon and served it. Really it was ok for a squash. I’m not a huge fan of the flavor of the meaty type squashes like that, but it was ok. I probably will not make it again though because the rest of the family didn’t like it.